Organic Development

Tuesday, I wrote about what I hope would come out of my blog and how I hope it would be delivered. I concluded with the fact that I really don't have a clear cut idea of any of it. There are bits and pieces of the puzzle that have found where they belong, but the big picture is yet to be completed.

Since then (and really, since the birth of this blog), I've muddled through the development. A part of me felt the burden of having to publish a post, regardless of whether or not I was happy with the content. Recently, I've come to realize that no such law or rule exist. It was simply an unrealistic and completely absurd pressure I placed on myself — an act not uncommon.

Armed with my "revelation," I vow to defend myself from the pressure of having to publish a post. I hope to post stories of things you may be interested in knowing and I'm excited to share. Those posts will develop organically (because I hear organic is all the rage) and be shared accordingly. Whether or not my posts will be consistent is a horse of a completely different color, but I hope to eventually find something resembling consistency. Ultimately, I guess time will tell.

Sincerely,

Cybill

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Tuning My Blogger Voice & Finding a Purpose

I've had this blog for almost two months. In that time, I've updated when I can and what I know. I've shared some stories of moments spent abroad, of things that run around in my mind and of course, news about college football. However, I still don't really know where I'm going with this blog.  I don't know where I want to go with this blog. I still don't really know what I want to accomplish with what I write and what I share with all of you.

I often weigh what stories from my past, moments in my present and hopes for my future, I should share with you readers. On one side of the scale, I'd like to keep a certain level of anonymity. I'm not about to air out my laundry — clean or otherwise. But on the other end of that scale, I know when it comes to a blog and blogging, a certain level of vulnerability and candid humor works. It lets you know I'm real and by no means do I have anything figured out.

Aside from the stories I share, I toy with the many ways to tell them. My voice, my blogging voice, my writing style and however you read these words, have a major impact on whether or not you think I'm a crap of a writer. Those opinions dictate whether you'll keep reading, whether you'll visit this page again or you'll decide to follow my blog.

At the end of the day and when we've reached the end of the road, I guess it doesn't really matter. I don't blog to gain followers. I don't think I blog to be reassured that I'm not a screw up in life. I blog in hopes that someone may feel that it's okay not to have it together. And I blog in hopes that you enjoy what I've written. Whether that means you leave my blog laughing and thinking, "This girl Cybill is a hot mess if I ever saw one," or "Damn, I wish we were friends in real life," I hope you know I'm being honest and I'm as multifaceted and can be as verbose as it may appear.

I guess, I won't have all my questions answered today and this puzzle remains unsolved. But, I'll keep on writing. I'll keep on blogging. I'll keep being a little sassy and sarcastic with a side of encouraging and endearing (at least that's what I hope y'all are getting from this). In time, maybe I'll have things figured out...then again, maybe I won't.

Sincerely,

Cybill

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